Tuesday, December 2, 2008

As I was cleaning out my hard drive, I came across this random .txt file. Seeing as I use word almost exclusively, I opened the file and opened the door to a drunken memory from first semester sophomore year. This has not been altered in anyway. I apologize to anyone this may offend. I still don't know why this is a .txt file.

"we were not alcoholics. but we showed great potential. John, the infinite hostess, was making sure that everyone had enough to drink. Bob, the super senior was scamming on all the girls. i was always at risk. everything blurred and swelled and i needed another cigarette. as the alcohol flowed we all became more aware of inhibitions and phobias. pet peeves and complexes. though out our bingeing- rules slowly came into existence. You do not spill beer on kurt vonnegeht. I spilled and denied and everyone believed in the elegant lie that this was life. in all it's beauty and flaws. this was life. we ate we drank we fucked when the alcohol flowed freely enough. we lived life to its fullest and scoffed at everyone who got in our way. bob was the eternal optimist who left stolen muffins over the house. john cleaned up after him. i sat back and enjoyed it all. bob was 23 but never let that get him down. in his 5 foot 1 frame he used his charming tiny innocence to his advantage. he would hold the refrigerator door open and ask "do you want a beer" and i would always say yes. for some strange reason and despite my 8 am class the next morning- i would always comply when bob offered. john invited high school memories to his house and would ask me, his loving wife, to assist in entertaining. and i , as his loving wife, would agree. and they would sit, gingerly sipping their beer and reminisce on the good ol' days. and i, drunken mess that i was, would sit at my computer and steal bob's music. i had become a professional drunken thief. stealing hair-bands and plugs from parties whenever my alcohol level allowed. but i the voice in the back of my head had a stronger tolarance for alcohol than i."

10/16/2007